Loss of Words.

You ever have those days where there is so much you want to say but you don't even know where to begin?

I don't know what to write, but I want to write, I feel like I have to because truth is this always makes me feel better...even when I'm already feeling good......you feel me? Usually when I can't really describe what I'm feeling I look for quotes or even think back to song lyrics that will reflect what's on my mind. I'm B L A N K. I don't know meng. Maybe all my emotions are just cancelling eachother out...is that even possible? lol

Or maybe it's just anger that's really taking over. lol. 23 hours out of the day I want to punch somebody in the face. I seriously don't know what's wrong with me. I think it's my job. I've been there for 7 years and my co workers and the patients are just urking the living crap out of me. I mean I told a patient that she needed to check herself the other day. Who does that? I DO. My co-worker/my wannabe boss... bitched at me about going on line at work...how it really bothers her and I straight up told her I don't give a fuck . Oh and let's not forget that anytime one of the doctors tells me to take an x-ray I've literally thought of jamming my pen into one of their eyeballs. Sick right? I mean give me a room with a whole bunch of shit I could break and it's on ...don't ask me why... these things shouldn't be bothering me.

Anyway....LIGHTBULB!! I think the reason I feeling so -weird-(for the lack of a better word) today is because of this crazy ass dream I had last night. I dreamt that my father was hit by a car and that he died. The dream better yet...this nightmare revolved around his wake and funeral. It was horrible. I've never had a dream like that....coffin and everything. I wonder what it means??

Well that's all folks..my bed awaits me.
This was a shitty blog entry....eh fuck it.
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