Let's Talk About SEX Baby...

So this is going to get personal but hey it's my blog. I had a textversation with this guy who apparently likes me. It went sort of like this.

He tells me that he hasn't had sex in 4 months, how he desperately wants some and how he can't stop thinking about it. I tell him I can't help him in that department, at least not anytime soon. He goes on to re-assure me that he wasn't trying to hint anything at me. So I go on to tell him that he indeed was because theres really no way a guy would bring that up unless he's trying to tell me something. Anyway, I tell him this little fact about me. It usually takes me some time before I can sleep with someone. (I mean I've had my moments) but USUALLY it does. Now I haven't been sexually active for about 10 months (yeah can you say FRUSTRATED) but it's all my choice, I've had opportunities yet I haven't given in. This situation, although I think is a good thing, can at times be....fucked up. I mean there are days where you're just in the mood but for some reason having sex with someone who isn't a potential boyfriend or who I don't share mutual feelings with always leaves me feeling....dirty and alone. Is this a bad thing? I mean there are some women who really just don't give a fuck. Who have fun do their thing without necessarily feeling bad about it. I don't know to me sex always has to mean something, you should have a "connection with someone"........but really should it always be that way? Is it possible for me to have some good old fashion sex without feeling bad that it was just for fun afterwards? Perhaps I'm being a bit bold for writing something such as this but.............it's what's on my mind.

So what's my problem??
Can't I ever just seperate the emotional from the physical?
After all I'm 24, in no need for something super serious right now, and at times a girl just wants to have fun.

-Dee