Inhale.......Exhale.

So I had a conversation, or better said a textversation, with an old friend last night. We we practically insperable since we were kids up until this summer. She kind of just dissappeared. I didn't really understand why. I was angry that she just stopped being around without and explanation at all. Anyway just recently we've become reaquainted. Nothing close to how it used to be just a hey, hello, how are you kind of thing. I let her know yesterday of something that's been on my mind for the past month.
That I understand. I finally get why she left. She has truly made a life for herself, the one she's always wanted. She went off did her thing without giving a damn what anyone else thought. To me that's quite inspiring. It doesn't mean she didn't care about our friendship, more like she felt she needed to be on her own so she can "find herself"(again cliche but true) She needed to break away from the rountine that became our lives, from all the bullshit and drama that had become our friendship. It's called fucking GROWING UP.

& I know all this because right now I feel exactly the same way. I guess I wouldn't have realized that if it wasn't for all the bullshit that has transpired over the last month. Because it wasn't my choice to walk away from a certain friendship more like I was told to go fuck myself.....I truly felt I was falling apart. I erased my blog, put down my facebook, and literally stayed home and I wanted nothing to do with anybody. Though it all still hurts, I've got to let it go. I have to be my own person....not be afraid to move on...not give in to opinions, manipulations, interpretations. Though there are pieces of myself that I have yet to find..parts I need to put together, I know the type of person I am. Regardless. I know there have been people who have tried to drill this into my head for quite some time now....I guess I just needed to see it for myself.

ThingsChange.PeopleLeave.

but

Life Doesn't Stop for Anybody

& that's just the way it is.