Dear Blog,
I apologize for abandoning you for so long....I assure you though its all because of good things. So here is my story for this year. I passed my first semester at Christ Hospital Nursing School with.......*drum rolls* and 'A'. Man does that feel good!!!! Its been a tough semester full of sweat blood and tears but I have never been more happier. I worked so incredibly hard to get that A and I am so proud of myself. KUDOS FOR ME!!! So other than school this year has been interesting...I've lost friends, made some new ones, made some bad choices, made some very good ones, but I guess that's how everyones life goes, no big surprise. What's different about me after this long but good year is that for once in a very very long time I put everything else aside and concentrated on ME. School was first when it came to everyone and everything. Its kind of paved the way for me because seeing the great outcome of that, I'm just going to continue on the path of putting what I want first. I don't mean that in a selfish, I don't give a fuck about you way. More like a this what I want, I'm going to fight to acheive it, and I don't want any UNECESSARY bullshit or drama in the way. I believe in my heart, truly that things will only get better for me. If I'm happy with myself, then I can be happy with everyone else..its goes hand in hand with that "If I don't love myself, than no one else will" phrase. I am looking forward, so very much to finishing school, to starting my career, to moving out and definitely to finding love. I'm ready for my life to start, ready to branch out, ready for EVERYTHING. Looking back at the past few years, I've realized that I've let so many opportunities pass me by. Let so many things slip through my fingers. I don't want to do that anymore, not ever. It's too painful. Too see all of the things you wanted....vanish. This has been a year of tears, laughs, loss, success but most of all of enlightenment. I see things in a whole new way. A happier way. So cheers for the years coming. Success is scary, but I've tasted a bit of it and I want more.
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to my biggest fan...talk about enlightenment...
Carlos Valera, Una Palabra...
"Una verdad no dice nada
y al mismo tiempo lo esconde todo
como una hoguera que no se apaga
como una piedra que nace polvo."- Carlos Valera.
